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Friday, October 23, 2009
bayb nana here , idk why all of a sudden emo mcm mau mampos . Making me think of my 2 special someone change everything . I really miss both of them , making me think all of this make me cry only . Why must my loved ones go ? Why ? This all happened for a reason , that's what they say . But what's the reason ? Why must all this unfortunate things happen to me ? All kinds of questions kept playing on my mind which do not have the answer for it . No one understand how sad , hurt , crushed I am , only my 3 heroes , only them . I can't stand being in this horror state , everything is just a scary nightmare . Worst nightmare of my lyfe . I wonder when is this going to stop . I have this weird mood swing which has been missing for a long time & now back again . I was pissed with everyone for no reason . Which now I feel darn guilty . Nana nie sensitive , I know , orite ? But I'm sorry . Things are all happening in a blink of an eye . Just like that , & there . Worst , everything turned real bad . Way too much chaos & I can't cope . Whatever I wanted in this lyfe isn't happening , whatever I don't want is happening . Is lyfe fair ? To me , obviously no for some parts . Why can't some humans feel me ? Why can't they try to be in my position , I bet they can feel it . & I bet , it's insane . It does , worst than you expect . Right now , my dear readers , imagine you're right here , in my position . One by one , problems come . Not coming to any other people , but me . Yes , you heard that . Me , aqu ! Oh God , why must this happen to me ? Why ohh why ? Is this tests from Him ? Is it ? Hell yeah , idk . What's on my mind right now , total blank . I really don't know what should I do , or what's my next step , or what's my future . I cannot think oreadi , is there still room in my mind to think about love ? Is there ? Too much for me to cope & now comes love . Which makes me more confused . I'm trying my very best not to reveal it , but like some say , it's hard to pretend . I'm trying my very best to scream my heart out , but no reason for me to scream , yes ? Who is going to be there for me when I really want to scream ? Gosh , I hate this . I hate this darn feeling that I'm getting from somewhere . I'm having all this on my mind , but yet , I still can give you guys that smile . I am willing to do anything for my people , but do my people will to ? That , idk , the answer is in your hands . Right now , idk who & which I should settle with or on . Is just one whole complicated problem . Lepas satu , timbol satu . Am I wasting my lyfe right now ? idk people , I'm ohso confused . Too complicated for me to solve . Now , sweetheart , do you feel me ? Do you feel how I feel after I blog this out ? This is not the fully one , is half my heart story . If you can feel me , bby , you understand me , which is good . If you don't , bby , try harder to feel me . Not getting it ? It's fyne . You might go thru it one fyne day . I will end every single thing here . xoxo , bayb nana . |
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